u know, i really feel..
waiting for u to turn back is like
a child waiting to grow old..
because of u, no, because of myself,
i start being the nicole i used to be already..
went for hours of councelling..
i start to be rude to teacher,
i start to have super duper heavy moodswing..
can see tt my classmate one by one is frustrated
by me, somehow..
ppl, i'm sorry, damn sorry..
i dont know what the shit had gone in me
& i lost temper easily is because i've a body tt
is very unhealthy, sick..
i cant 100% do things like all of u could..
i cant eat, cant drink at times..
and it's medicine i gotta depend on..
sorry to keep so many of u in the dark..
cus i just want to be treated like normal ppl,
that can laugh scream and stuff..
my dear classmates especially,
i really hope u guys is reading this..
but over all, i'm still would like to apologise..
to the guys tt think i'm childish..
yes i'm childish..
no one teach me to stand up.. no one..
when me myseld want to learn what happen..?
rmb tt time pe?
i wanted to learn how to tie shoe lace,
but kena shoot be shobash something like
so big already still dont know how to tye shoe lace,
u useless or what..? yes, i cried..
dui bu qi, it's a childish act i know..
but my heart cant take it n tears just fall..
and as for 2.4 training..
sorry class, u guys always wait for me at the
destination n i'm always the last.. sorry..
minus away those tt is fat [no offence], injured, sick,
i'm always the last.. dui bu qi..
i dont have running legs as thin as shamane them
and i also dont have the energy to run..
sorry, it's excuses i know..
i will try to catch up as soon as i can(:
my class, i wants to communicate lots with u all..
can u all just dont look at my negative..?
pls give me a chance to really know the nicole this yr..
the last time me i've changed..
dont just me like last year..
give me a chance will u all.?
i know even if u all give me chance,
i will still have attitudes, moodswin n stuff..
but pls forgive my unpleasant n live with my pleasant
if this is the way,
i promise i will cherish each n everyone of u guys..
...........................................................love, nicole
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