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Friday, March 28, 2008 ♥

buzzing buzzing , snap snap~
what the hell..
i really cant take it anymore..
Nlevel is freaking near..
1 , 2 , 3 , 4 , 5 months more..?
but what the hell..
I CANT FORGET U !
I CANT ! I REALLY CANT !
i told myself i could,
i do all sorts of ridiculas things just to forget u
but boy , I CANT FORGET U!
i'm so freaking jealous when i came to know
U LOVES HER! ahhhhh~
what the hack is wrong with me..?
i dont know is this the true u or just making
me hate u , ignore u..
i pretended , real hard..
but fates just keep playing..
everywhere i go , there's u..
even if i stay at home ,
friends , computer , phone calls will
keep reminding me of you..
i guess most of my friends is sick of my attitude..
i couldn't control, i couldn't..
thousands of time i find solutions,
but none works out..
i even find poster boyfriend or new target..
but it's still u who strikes me..
i dont know why, i dont know how..
how to forget u..
remember the promises uu've made..?
it's all rubbish , bullshit..
i hate my name now adays..
ppl call me nikki , nick n stuff,,.
it all reminds me of u..
remember those days when i still dont like u..?
remember what u have promised..?
remember how u win my heart over..?
remember all the crazy things we have done..?
is it really over..?
thousand of times u left me wondering..
i once ask u, do u realy want me to forget
u n like another guy..?
ur answer is..
''go ahead n like another guy without someone
who loves u sooo much''..
u know what this sentence means..?
it pulls my heart back..
ahhhhhh~ today saw u at the bus stop..
was suppose to take tt bus..
do u know why i rather walk home although
is freaking far..?
cus something u have promised u just break it..
bobo u! break ur another promise..
anyway, i know i cant forget u..
i tried hard, but still cant..
i decided to love u silently..
when there's hurt, i will keep it to myself..
when i'm jealous i will keep it to myself too..
boy, just home u will come to school often..
n i really thanks god u board the bus..
do u know tt ur friends kena screening..?
i think is smoke or whatever..
i know if u're there, sure join them de..
dont mix with them le la.. pls..
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~
i hope to see u now ,
but i know all this is just my day-dream.
i hate u but i love u.. i just cant forget u..
i just cant , really cant forget the sweet
talks u've said..
u like me for a year or longer..
i told u a thousands time i cant lose u..
but will u really forget me..? i wonder..

& any kind souls pls tell me,
WHAT IS LOVE..???

had been really busy this days..
emotionally breakdown..
but dont worry, i still force myself to get alife..
just tt art these days really kills..
i've got not enough time to do anything..
anyway, meeting caroline for movie tomorrow..
let me have a-day off(: hahs !

anyway, do u readers know i've cut my hair..?
haha, real short this time..
till a length tt cannot tye..
it looks kinda weird.. i'm still trying hard to adapt
hah ! till now i'm blogging , i still miss you..

today..
woke up at 6 n freaking lazy to move..
cus last night slept at 2.. (damn art)
dragged myself to the toilet then to school (",)
reach school, was busy looking for u..
did u come school? wonder*
i dint see you , n i beame emo again..
then thanks lover , she told me he did come school
and he stands just beside her on bus
n even cuts her queue.. haha , so cute !
ALWAYS LIKE TT DE LA HIM..
ok, tt really brightens up my day..
i just felt like the darks clouds had just passed (:
i'm happily waiting for the school bell to ring
so tt i could rush to the bus stop n pretend
to wait for the bus to see if we will be on the same
haha, as i expected , u're there..
u're so pretty KIA-SU la..
see u chiong to the first one like the bus no place
like tt , super lame but super cute,, haha..
then u saw me , n i dont know how to re-act suddenly
so i gave a sarcastic smile.. okay , i'm shy la !
haha, but ur hair really upsets me alot..
u promised u wont do this hairstyle de..
u promise everytime before u go out sure will put
gatsby first de.. but today u dint..
u let everythig down , naturally..
i'm jealous la, i dont like other girls look at u can !
ur hair like tt so nice , so innocent.,..
promise breaker.. but nvr mind ,
i'm not in the right to interfere anymore anyway..
boyboy, just hope u wont like tt again..
later girls kena attracted to u then i will
jealous till siaoooooooooooo de.. haha..
ok, back to just now..
after giving u the sarcastic smile ,
u gave me the face tt says..
''eh , did u cut hair.? when u cut de..?"
tt makes me feel so weird..
n sadly, i leave lover boarding the bus alone..
while lover is on the bus with him,
i walked damn fast to the stop where i know
lover n him would alight..
which is like four bus stop..? haha
obviously , i sweat like hell..
meet lover there where she alight..
but what the hell..? he dint alight..
okay , i guess i know where he is going le ba..
some gardens at marsiling..
i felt so dissapointed..
acc lover take train..
was supposingly going to ah-yi house at bedok..
so i could see him all way through..
cus he stays at bedok..
then who knows he dint alight the bus , so ya..
as planned, still take train with lover..
obviously , i have no heart to go bedok anymore..
but i dont make lover feel like i pang-seh her again
n so i took train with her..
suppose to take to ang mo kio..
but halfway, i really cant stop myself from faking
smile n change topics to talk to with lover..
but then deep in my heart i know my tears is
busting out.. n i alighted at yio chu kang to bounce
back to woodlands.. i cant even say BYE to lover,
i only waved, cus i know tears dripping out le..
after bidding goodbye with lover ,
i busted out in tears.. like a baby crying..
boarded the train.. with 20 or 30 ppl thinking
i'm some weird ass , siao zha bor..
but who cares..? i cant stop myself la..
i miss him i miss him i just miss him la!
no use saying all this , yes i know..
blogging at home now , tears drip down again..
i know he must be smoking now..
at somewhere out there , planet earth..
i hate it , his lips is already turning purple..
still smoke smoke smoke.. big idiot !
have i ever tell u guys which part of him i like
the most..? tt's his lips.. haha..
he had a super unique lips tt can kill girls..
other boys use eyes kill girls , he use smile..
hahahaha, anyway, it's all over..
back to just now..
after crying like a big baby,
i alighted at woodlands,
still hoping tt i would have a chance to see him
cus he gotta go there change bus to reach the
garden place thingy la..
but he's not there..
i'm once again disappointed , very..
but it's okay , at least he comes to school more often(:
anyway my dear readers,
loving him in silence n no ending is not a bad thing..
i believe i would be able to forget him when someone
i loves appers again , someday , out there(:
i will never forget him till another comes..
i dont know why , so dont ask..
right now , i miss him like a child missing his mother..
boy , i miss you..
i really do miss those happy , sad , crazy times we had..
it's all well kept in my memories..
goodbye my love..

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