i've been studying real hard these days..
hoping tt i would score well n go sec5
so i could at least see u for one more year..
isit really just a empty hope..?

even if one day i fall for another guy ,
no one will ever replace u..

ok crap , i dont know why i'm still flashing
back to the past.. i know i should move on ,
i really really do.. but,
i dont know why,
although ur image had slowly disappear ,
but there's many shadows around..
shall let god take care of everything..
i'm just a normal human being..

school is fine today..
my pink pig never come , fever..
i miss her laughter , everyone do.
realy hope she will recover soon n join us..
had nafa 5stations today..
my legs hurts now , super.
did badly for pull up , only 5 , crap.
did well for shuttle run , 11.3 (: haha..
okay , next week sure die , 2.4..
i dont know why..
last yr i run is 16mins plus..
this yr trial round at different campus
the result is 25mins plus..
isn't that a lil over..?
about 10mins different leh..
heard tt the road is longer , oh shit.
i hate it , i dont expect to get a gold ,
i only wanted bronze.. hah !
n i have low blood kays.
tt trial round although fail ,
but still i almost fainted in the canteen
infront of my friends..
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~
physical education is full of craps.

my legs hurt many.
my hips is so painful..
rawrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr~

got back my social studies test paper today ,
quite happy, quite sad .
i scored 58 / 100.. i dint study..
believe if i did , i sure would score much better.
but at least i pass , *tap on shoulder*
more tests are coming out , i'm worried..
especially maths.. i always score single digits ,
god , i really gotta buck up..

had been hiding n really log myself up in the room
to study.. hoping tt i can get abc into my head..
indded i did , but every few mins ,
it's still U i think about.. why?
had been asking a million times..
stupidboy is going through almost the same thing
as me , but sadly , i felt so helpless..
it's like , how could someone who's injured
still go save someone..?
i tried my best to console him despite i'm still
crying painfully right in my heart..
i'm sorry my best friend ,
i've really try my best to do what i could..
i hope we will get through this soon..
yes i dont like lameshit le ,
but i guess it's a type of miss ba..
i'm so use to life with him le..
although had been 3months ,
but i'm still very not use to it..
in school assembly ,
from last time till now ,
very co-incidencely , we will always sit in the
same row de , now still the same..
i used to always turn to the right and will
see u smiling at me..
we had different recess slot ,
everytime my last period , ur recess ,
u will always be outside my art class rushing
to the canteen to be the first to buy..
everytime when i'm going back to class,
i will look up to ur class wonder if u were there..
it's so hard not to look at you ,
our class is just opposite , n a level different..
a thousand time i promise my friend i wont look
at you anymore , i tried.. but i still did ,
i dint purposely look at u..
i dont know why ,
looking at u is like a daily routine..
my head just turn w/o me realising..
how how how..?
will time really cure..?
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~

this song , teardrops on my guitar ,
is dedicated to those who is going through
the same thing as me..

& boy , if i have one more chance ,
i will never never let u go..
i regret asking for break ,
i regret not explaining to u ,
i regret not telling u how much i love u..
i regret letting u go to her"
i regret knowing you..

& yes , tt girl is a thousand times
much much more btter then me..
she so much more stronger then me
in everyway.. n she wont stop u
from doing what u want ,
even smoking i guess..
i wont be bothering u anymore ,
not any longer..
i will move on with life..
await for my new him"
actually , i already know who is him" le..
rather cant believe it la..
anyway, stop looking at u is possible already
(: i really can dont look at u anymore ,
trust me , once i let u go ,
i will never fall for u again..
and tt's the reason why i've been so reluctant
to forget you , to leave u..
but i will , from now on (:

having chemistry test tomorrow..
gonna go memorise notes now ,

just hope god would give me another hope ,
to replace this hurts u left for me..
.............................S_A_Y_o_N_A_R_A ~