i'm not in the good mood now.. ):
frustrated, maybe more towards disappointed with myself..
read on if u want to know why..
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woke up at 7am just now,
receive a call from kaisheng asking for accompany for breakfast..
waited for him as his 1/2hour late :/ i'm not angry (:
his beehoon not nice, so he ate abit only.
i dint manage to finish my breakfast cus i feel bad when someone waiting.
reach school at 9, miss maths, tt's great actually..
had ss after tt, talking about venice, i like it.
next was english, i did letter writing n chabot to art.
art was pretty fine.. i finally started painting my canvas..
n i started on winnie the pooh, my favourite.
i was happily painting, then mrs tang come add black n brown on it.
i was so shock la, winnie the pooh in brown colour ? shit hell angry la.
i told her i dont like it, then she say, fine, i could see u dont appreciate my kindness,
i wont help you anymore..
but heyyyyy~ now u destroy my work, of course u must continue painting la.
i mean like, yellow is a light n smooth colouur, u suddenly add so strong colour,
how u want me to continue ? then she walk away. fuck.
so many people come say,
''eh nicole, i thought u like wtp ? why draw until so ugly?''
fuckfuckfuck. the feeling of so fuckup la.
at first everyone say so nice, now's the contradict. shit.
like tt still okay know.
still got ppl come say,
''eee nicole ur standard like tt one uh?
then last time work got ppl help u do is it?"
wa FUCK ! dont doubt my artpiece, its definitely done by me !
imagine u work so hard, spend so much time on every piece,
ur mood already so down,
then ppl like tt come add fuel to fire,
how will u feel..? urghhhh!~
after tt then i know from mrs tang tt she dont know what is winnie the pooh.
walau ! no wonder anyhow paint bearbear colour la.
i was super frustrated, but i couldn't blame her,
cus she had the kind intention to help me..
but i'm really _________ as no matter how i'm gonna re-paint it,
it will never be pure yellow again, howhowhow ?
then i say i was thinking to re-paint, then my friends _______.
say wad ''what if it become ugler?"
waeh, nabay la. i need support, not this sort of discouragement la..
i mean like, its so jialat already, u want me to leave it like tt..? xyz!
cried just now. shit mood.
i guess on monday i should try re-painting los,
if not i really gotta say goodbye to distinction. hais. )'=
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Nicole came to blog @ 6:01 PM
