...i'm back (:
its tuesday morning 6.45now (:
i was stil loitering around my blog.
going to scool at 8am for no great reason.
just finish being a emo, cried.
visited tankaisheng blog,
heard his blogsong again n agan,
though this is not the first time i hear this song,
but this time, i cry like fucking hell lots.
so cope his song from mixpod. and now my current blogsong.
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mr xyz, this is for you.
nicole miss you, a lorry lots.
i'm here counting the days left to see you.
28 more days.
fuck it. minus sat n sun chances of seeing u is only 21days left.
this time i dint keep to our agreement of forgetting u,
i just couldn't make yself to do it,
you're just so lovely, so dearly.
though we ended officially five months ago,
but i regretted manymany.
i'm like that, always regret after things happen.
21days left, now a definate chance to see you,
i never see u for nearly a week already,
i can bust out in tears like no big deal,
what if i dont see you for a year or more..?
thanks for letting me know u haven forget me,
but, we cant gt back together.
so what's left for us is a goodbye.
make it a sweet one boy..?
if i cold see u 21days later,
be aware, i'll sure rushed to u with a big hug.
if i dont see you, i will cry like a baby.
i know u are busy with ur family business,
i know u have no more time for me,
baby, to me u r not my friend,
cus i love you.
not a love that end so easily,
but a love tat grows more and more.
plain n simple, i just love you.
u've gone thru s much with me,
during my previous breakup,
during the time where my friends left me,
during the times where i have fight with my parents,
u r always there lending me ur shoulder.
sorry i left u that time.
hope u could do well in ur family business,
smile happily everyday okay..?
the days ahead of us is not predictable,
but boy lets promise each other we will be happy no matter what,
and most of all, not think of each other and move on,
if fate will bring us together again,
that time i will never ever let u go.
be strong in army,
everything wll be alright.
i will keep to he deal of not msg-ing u anymore.
till the day we next meet,
find a good girl, at least one that is better then me.
move on. u have my blessings.
i wll do that too.
i wont forget the times we spent,
the times whenever we went out,
i couldn't blog, cus its a silent stead.
now when i'm blogging, all this seems to be yesterday.
i wont forget that valentines day.
for which so many passerbys give us blessings.
it so unforgettable, i will never forget ur surprises.
didn't want to let you down.
but still i did it again n again,
just like the blogsong ''goodbye'',
everytime i did something wrong u wont ask me why.
because its you, because i love you.
thats my excuse. i'm sorry.
u give me the best valentines day, and of course,
my best valentine.
last time till now,
you will remain unknown as mr xyz.
forever and ever i'll remember you.
.
if the clock could turn back,
i will want you.
if aladdin gives me three wishes.
i will wish to have
you, you and you.
all the best. goodbye my love.
hoping to see you at least once more in 21days.
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Nicole came to blog @ 6:43 AM
