if i say im fine now. im completely lying.
went to tommys blog, like finally,
I CRIED. i cried because i read his post,
about how nice uncle and aunty is to him.
mine? is the extreme contradict.
my parents had been nagging at me.
my father even say he will stop giving me allowance
because of this breakup. being unreasonable.
i know they love me, but i just feel so bad, so sad.
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buddy called me mins ago.
he was shocked i was laughing all the way.
i have no idea why i am laughing.
probably after ytd stupidboy left,
i haven open my mouth to talk to anyone yet.
all i do is chatting on msn with ppl that dont require
any talkings or true expressions.
buddy, i feel damn down.
or rather, i feel that he really let me down.
i know i told everyone i'll be fine and
im so happy and laughing infront all of you.
but deep down in my heart its rather sad.
he said he will love me forever, but he dint.
i need someone to give me a big slap on my face
and tell me to wake up.
i promise you guys i'll be alright soon,
i know when im determine to stop my love, i will.
and if he stills want me back by that time,
i will give him a big kick on hes ass.
but now, what am i holding back? ):
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and ive been drinking water the whole day.
the last time i ate was like the 3mouths of baked rice
with ron ytd. yes 3mouths only ):
i dint eat for more then 24hours already.
yet i dont feel hungry at all.
i seriously have no appetite.
dear friends, dont worry.
i'll be fine. i'll be the happy nicole again.
i dont want giggsy tommy to feel bad or guilty also.
he deserves to be happy and choose hes own road.
since he could move on so well without me,
i know i can also.
i dont want to be the burden to make him feel bad.
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and dear readers, this will be the last post you read.
till the next time i post, probably maybe few months
or years later. or for all you know,
i might kena car bang accident tomorrow and never
blog again. so do not waste your time to come and read my
meaningless blog any time soon.
take are of yourself, drink more water. (:
thank you for reading my blog everyone (:
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nicole sign off-
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