so after all, he initiate a breakup.
i feeled so betrayed, my love, my trust.
i actually silly till the extend where i thought he said
'' baby, i will never ever leave you '' is true,
YES, I BELIEVED. but i was wrong -.-
i flunk my last paper fucking badly.
hald the class was looking at my expression today.
everyone was saying im extremly high today.
yes i am? IM ALWAYS STRONG FROM THE OUTSIDE.
yea, i'll accept it that he wants a break.
my friends think he's sucha bastard,
but to me, no he isnt. he's one that i used to love alot.
should i say even now? since its less then 24hours?
but i know, i'm so gonna let him go.
maybe he and i will both be a happier person,
he's still my friend, i consider him as one.
im so thankful to all my classmates,
all was so considerate towards me,
jaryl them even cancelled their outin with their friends,
JUST TO ACCOMPANY ME. thanks babes and dudes.
i've decided to let him go, since he does not want me anymore.
I'LL TRY TO BE A BETTER PERSON, I SWEAR :D
.
Glenn showed me this just now :
''A boyfriend gave a challenge to his girlfriend to live a day
withouthim, no communications at all.
He said if she passed it, he will loveher forever.
The girlfriend agreed. She did not text or call him the
whole day. Without knowing that her boyfriend
has only 24hours to live because he was suffering from cancer,
she excitedly went to his house the next day.
Tears fall as she saw her boyfriend lying
in the coffin with a note inside, saying:
''You did it baby, can you do it everyday? I love you.'' ''
.
i cried when i finish reading.
since he dont want me anymore,
im bury our memories, and my heart for him.
and im really trying my best to be strong already,
and i have no fucking idea why my nose is bleeding. .__.
at least we are still friends, im contempted.
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