hey yo yo! im back to blogg! (:
sorry readers, im gone for like so long?
im sorry okay, school had been real busy for me.
its wed dawn and thurs morning now.
time check, 4:21am.
suppose to be asleep but its really tempting to blog,
especially after not blogging for a decades. :D
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im goinna blog about my life. shatekians life.
school had been great because i found a wonderful bf.
school had been real bad because im sorta _____.
people who know me knows that im a straight froward person.
i judge people thru my eyes. i dont malign people for no reason.
i dont backstab ppl, but i seriously have no idea why ppl bs me.
if its fact, i accept it. but what if its something i've not done?
would you like it if i backstab you or anyhow chop you from behind?
comeon, think. we are all adults already. stop being childish.
you may be the prettiest girl or hottest dude
or some popular popstar.... thats why your words are influencing.
but but but, why are you doing this?
god make you the strong doesnt mean you can bully the weak ):
whats more im your close friend (yes close).
what you said behind my back, i know okay.
probably some nice souls betrayed your trust to tell me.
dont blame them, cus they cant take it anymore that you are
bitching fake things behind my back.
its not as if i dont know okay, i know everything.
i just dont wanna say out to spoil your....''oh-so beautiful'' image.
thats the last thing i could do for being your friend.
anyway its over. hmmm.
i dont deny i still love you as we're close last time.
and its really really really hurtful to know you said all those.
i took quite sometime to recover from this wound.
but...., im glad we are far apart now.
but dont forget, you've lost the trust of mine now.
as i forgive people easily, (which dont give you a reason to hurt
me further), i'll still gladly treat you as my friend if one day
you decided to come back or talk to me.
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''guys see you as angel, i see you as devil''
is a very powerfl phrase i learnt.
especially to describe pretty girls who are attractive
that make guys turn insanely in love with them.
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my boyfriend is my strength, and now my soul.
we are once strangers, then to friends,
then to good friends, and now he's my boyfriend.
he's my buddy, my love and my sweetheart.
I LOVE YOU NIGEL MOXIE (:
thank you for being there all this while to support me.
no one seriously had any idea how hurt i felt.
you were there for me, "there you'll be".
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basically this few days is school holidays.
we had one week break every 2.5 months.
next break might be cancelled due to Youth Olympics.
yes wonderful uh? we are forced to volunteer and
school might take away our break to make up for those
lessons we missed ot during the yog. -.-
and the __ part is baby couldn't celebrate his 21st bday,
just because it falls inbetween yog and he might have to work.
oh how f up can things get ):
sorry for using vulgarities, just feel so pekcek.
yog is once in a lifetime event,
but bf's 21st bday is also once in a lifetime .__.
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okay. enough of whining and complaining.
i realise the whole post is me xyz-ing how bad life is.
gonna wash up now and meet my love in dreams!
take care everyone, i love you guys! (:
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NICOLEXUANSUPERVAINloveNIGELMOXIE.
''if youre in this, we are in this together"
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Nicole came to blog @ 4:19 AM
